Brief Analysis of The Narrator in “Lost Much As Twice”
Brief Analysis of The Narrator in “Lost
Much As Twice”
In this poem, we see the impotence and powerlessness
of our narrator, she cannot control life and death, and hence she must be
subjected unwillingly to lose and be separated from two dear people to
her. This state of not having control
over death and loss, makes her have an unstable relationship with God. The main
reason for this instability is the fact that she alters her impression about
God, she is in limbo wherein at one moment she attaches positive connotations
to God, and at other times she gives God negative attributes. For instance, she
positively acknowledges the fact that God is the creator and source of all life
by referring to Him as a ‘Father’. But later one, she calls God a ‘banker’ and
a ‘theft’, as she feels offended and attacked by God from the mere fact that
she makes Him responsible for taking away the two people dear to her.
By describing God with two opposite tones, we see the
kind of tension that our narrator is dealing with, namely, the fact that God
does not only bring life to things but also death. Hence, she cannot reconcile
these two opposite acts of God, namely, the giving and the taking away from
people. Thus, it becomes clear that in this poem our narrator cannot reconcile
her mortal suffering, and this is shown by the fact that she cannot have a
concrete and stable conception of God.
This was very helpful for me to understand the process of life as a representation of God. To believe that God grants us life and delivers us death implies that he is responsible for both actions rather than one or the other. The narrator seems to be conflicted about the overall process of experience, the rising and ceasing. In order for death to be significant or bring pain it must remind us of the memory of life. For example, when someone is sick we are pained at the memory of when that person was healthy. The fact that we need the memory of one to experience the suffering of the other reveals our discomfort with the entire process of life. In order to truly enjoy with calmness our experience of life we must also appreciate the individual parts that work together to gives us a momentary presence of life. The narrator's frustration with God about death shows that the love for God is one sided/partial, diminishing the wholeness of his creation of experience (life and death).
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