Children and Adults by Duong Trinh
Mrs. Ramsay repeats to herself, "Children don't forget, children don't forget" after her thought is presented as follows in chapter XI of To the Lighthouse:
"No, she thought, putting together some of the pictures he had cut out – a refrigerator, a mowing machine, a gentleman in evening dress – children never forget."
He is James, Mrs. Ramsay's son. From her perspective, he cuts out images from books to keep his memories in static pictures. He finds extraordinary joy in doing so because "to such people even in earliest childhood any turn in the wheel of sensation has the power to crystalize and transfix the moment upon which its gloom or radiance rests." But children will forget, I believe so. To wit, James' desire to collect images results from a wheel of sensations, which evokes incessant motion. In other words, he cuts out images to remember what sparked joy in him, not to keep in mind anything with a specific meaning. Sensations fleet and pictures serve to transfix them. Children like him do not intend to recall what happened at the exact moments when they removed photographs and why they were motivated to collect them, but how they felt about them. Therefore, as time goes by and sensations continually move, their gloom and radiance will not be traced back with certainty. Children will forget, eventually. What remains to them is only a collection of pictures that very rarely succeeds in reminding them of their childhood.
I think Virginia Woolf shares with me this view that children have fleeting memory. She adds on to Mrs. Ramsay's thought, as mentioned earlier, that "For this reason, it was so important what one said, what one did, and it was a relief that they went to bed." Children take rests so they will forget what might sadden them before sleeping. They probably engage themselves in numerous other adventures and emotional roller-coasters in their dreams, and then they will wake up afresh. However, all adults emerging in the story do not let themselves stop for a moment to rest or take a nap. If they have free time, they will play with their internal thoughts. What's fun in that, except for Lily's self-consciousness of being watched painting and Mr. Ramsay's preoccupation with his momentary reputation, for instance?
Moreover, there is a huge difference in looking at cut-out images between James and Mrs. Ramsay. It is manifest that James holds a hatred towards his father. Unfortunately, there is no mention that his animosity appears when he pulls out and observes any of his images. Nonetheless, his murderous intention arises when his father is around, showing him his frowned, angry, and dissatisfied expressions. Simply put, James collects catalog images not to engrave his fatherly hatred forever.
In contrast to him, Mrs. Ramsay, at the end of chapter III, "looking down at the book on her knee found the picture of a pocket knife with six blades" after she gets infuriated with Charles Tansley for being mean to her son. She is even willing to offer Mr. Tansley as a sacrifice, and the knife found afterward expresses a remnant of her deadly intention in serving as a weapon to help her kill him. Hence, thinking that children never forget, Mrs. Ramsay is the one to forget nothing. Among tons of various pictures in the book, the knife catches her attention as she doesn't bury her prejudice towards Tansley. Remarkably, her concealment of emotions proves that William Bankes is wrong, thinking of her, at the end of chapter V, as without "some freak of idiosyncrasy." She cleverly hides her hostile intentions, not only in her mind but also in the images that she catches a glimpse of while reading.
Very perceptive, Ms. Trinh. I hope you keep following what "catches" Mrs. Ramsay emotionally; see if you can find a pattern that expresses her core. Could it be that even while she experiences emotions very intensely, she moves on from them quickly and doesn't stay fixated, unlike Tansley, for instance? Moreover, do you think that Mr. Bankes is generally wrong about Mrs. Ramsay, idealizing her from the outside, or is there something he gets right about her? The child's point of view seems really important in these early chapters and will be picked up in the third part of the book.
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